Dreamer

Some moments in life are hilarious, filled with jokes and smiles. Other moments in life are serious, filled with tears and sorrow. There are moments of comfort and steadiness, others of joy and silliness. Then there are some moments in life that are simply breathtaking. This photo was that breathtaking moment for me. Through the lens of my camera, I saw a dreamer.

“You know a dream is like a river

ever changing as it flows.

And a dreamer just a vessel

that must follow where it goes.

Trying to learn from what’s behind you,

but never knowing what’s in store.

That makes each day a constant battle,

just to stay between the shore.

Too many times we stand beside

and let the water slip away.

What we put off ’til tomorrow,

has now become today.

So don’t you sit upon the shoreline

and say you’re satisfied.

But choose to chance the rapids

and dare to dance the tide.”

There’s bound to be rough waters

And I know I’ll take some falls.

But with the good Lord as my captain

I can make it through them all.

I will sail my vessel

’til the river runs dry.

Like a bird upon the wind

these waters are my sky.

I’ll never reach my destination,

if I never try

I will sail my vessel

until the river runs dry.” – “The River” by Garth Brooks

Growing up I always imagined this song was about me and my journey. I had a strong connection with “The River” because it completely represented my life. I’ve always felt like a follower in life to someone or something else. I’ve felt that I’ve been guided spiritually to places I have been and to the places I’m going.

The past has haunted me before, but I’ve grown to recognize the lessons. Understanding what those lessons are, I’ve been able to fight small battles in life and get closer to my dreams (whatever those may be). I became proactive in life, always planning ahead, because why put off my to do’s until tomorrow, when I could get them done today?

I cannot express how lucky I am to have found my life partner. Looking back, life could have played out differently. He could have settled down earlier or I could have been dating someone else when we met. I could have chosen to study abroad in Germany instead of London or he could have never left his home town. Or even more simply, I could have never said hello and that would have been it! But, there is something about taking a risk in life that both intrigued and terrified me at the time. Staying in Minnesota wasn’t for me, I wasn’t satisfied. Who would have known that I’d chance the rapids of London and dance the visa tide?

Not long ago, I said to a friend, “something is going to happen with my partner and me. It will be something that shakes our relationship”. She was shocked and scolded me for thinking badly. She’s right, it’s not great that I’ve come to the conclusion something bad will happen within our relationship, but I cannot deny the likeness of it. Life isn’t easy, we will (and do) struggle over time. But those rough waters, those challenges that come along with a long term relationship, only make us stronger. When I fall, my partner will be there with a hug. When he is ready to tear his hair out from puppet building, I’ll be there with a large cup of tea. When we both have fallen, it seems someone else has got our backs.

“The River” isn’t about my journey and me. It’s my journey in life with those around me, with my partner standing beside me. We dream big because at the end of the day, what do we have to lose? Looking off into the distance, this world is filled with endless possibilities. Our river with all its twists, turns, and waterfalls, the possibilities continue to spill into our minds.

Our dream is like a river.

2 thoughts on “Dreamer

  1. Love love,your writings.Your so talented,always wait for a new one.Your mom posts them.This was one,that everyone should read.

  2. Aly, your skills at communicating continue to grow and deepen and this is a wonderful example. I love this post. It’s brimming with thoughts and images and comfort……and I really enjoyed it. Thank you.

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